A lot of times, I am consumed. Consumed by anger the most, by hatred a bit, by fear very little and by love sometimes.
Its a state where I have no control over myself, or, I should rather say, its a state where I do not want any control over myself. I just let that emotion rip through me and to engulf me. What happens during those moments is something I can only recap, sometimes with agony and sometimes with remorse. But those moments do come back and I let it take me over yet again.
Some say its just human. I tend to think the same. I dont believe in curbing emotions. Some say we need to excercise control. I have tried and seldom succeeded.
But in recent years, I have realised that in certain situations or with certain people, my love or my anger or my actions or my words make no difference whatsoever. It it these circumstances that lead me to think that perhaps it is better to excercise control after all.
To be consumed by my own emotions is one thing. To be consumed by someone else is totally a different thing!! I much prefer the former!
